Life is Great.. Never Give Up!

i’m damn bored while waiting for others to finish! dunno what to write and my last entry was more than a year ago. sigh. since i’m bored to death let me write sumthing to ‘kill’ the time. btw i’m doing my CCNA sponsored by my dear company HP Enterprise Services (formerly known as EDS).  i’m not really keen in doing this training coz i prefer either Project Management of MCSE. but since it is free y not, i can gain more knowledge and add more more professional certs to my CV. btw the training is held @ amcorp mall and whenever i stuck in my boredom, i set myself free roaming around the centre browsing @ the flea market.

owh yeah, Raya just passed and as usual i celebrated my Raya @ home while looking @ my laptop (work from home).  i’m getting fatter, wider and broader, keep munching all the “kuih raya” non-stop. sigh biler laa nak kurus camnih :(. for the 1st time in my life, my mom didn’t cook for raya. i was furious and my that daddy, hurrmmm tell me about it. she refused to cook over sumthing i said during sahur and YES she made it real this time - NO FOOD FOR RAYA!!! uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. on the Raya day itself my house was flooded with food from my bros and sis. lucky @ least we have sumthing to eat. apart from that, it just a normal average Faskah’s Raya in KL.

on work part, A LOT HAD HAPPENED! as for 23 september 2009, EDS has been changed to HP Enterprise Services and after 31 october 2009, EDS is no longer a company. @ first i wasn’t happy with the new pay scheme including the allowance so i decided to quit and wanted to venture into a new environment.

arghhhh training dah nak start - to be continued….

Boring. I feel something is not right. My left eye keeps clipping for the past 2 days. Last night I saw a trailer overturned @ MRR2 and another car tumbled like a kura-kura on the same highway. Pastuh teringat laa mase akue memula accident early this year. MY WORST NIGHTMARE! Skang nih dah tak berani nak bawak laju2 especially kat corner and driving in half-conscious mode again. PHOBIA! Tak tau laa nape maybe sebab last night akue drove Ford car for joyride. BTW kete Ford yg eksiden teruk giler babi tuh dulu dah siap! Dah lame nak pki tp malas lak nak bawak sebab leceh asik tuko2 kete jerk pastuh stereo tadek. Felt awkward driving the Ford car after I’m suitly comfortable with my new ride. But the memories remain with the Ford car. Eventhough dulu physique die agak buruk (sopak sane sini), akue still menghargai jasa dan pengorbanan die. Kete Ford akue tuh laa akue pki gie dating, gie klas, dan macam2 laa, tak terkira banyaknye. It is not just a piece of metal junkie but it carries a sentimental value.

Pastuh hari nih tetiba jerk teringat kat mama kat umah. Then my dearest Abang came across my mind. I wonder, nape ek? Lately tadek mood, last couple of weeks even worst! Some fuckers suke hati jerk naikkan darah akue pagi2 masuk keje. Aarggh tension tension. My main problem is dunno how to channel my frustration and tension. I always keep it to myself and it is burdening me. Lantak laa dah tak tau ape nak wat. Baik tido pastuh makan lagik best. I’m craving for Carl’s Jr (bukan Karl Numan) now! Wooohoooooo. Hari tuh try makan Wendy’s kat Pyramid tp teramatlah disappointed. Short entry sebab tgh buhsan and restless. Now I feel a bit better. Today ends with hurray. Nite nite.

March comes to the end and so far, it is the best of 2008. Many things have happened and I dunno where to start. To be honest I almost fall and break at certain time. Well, it is good to show how capable I am with life. @ work nothing much happened except for information overloading. From start to end, the whole team has been sent for training from one account to another but the workload remains unchanged. Less stress and more relaxing as compared to my previous team. Nevertheless, towards the end, the numbers keep flowing in and it caught me off-guard, out of my comfort zone. I love challenges and I am going to propel myself to the next level. Bring it on peeps!

I celebrated my 27^th birthday on the 11^th. Moreover, it is good to enjoy the day at home during the school holidays with all the little rascals. We went for swimming and spent the rest of the day at home chilling. Thank you to all SMSes, emails, phone calls and everything sent to me. Million thanks, hugs and kisses for all of you. Muah muah muah :p. In the office, my dear supervisor Tenex sprang a surprise for me. She purposely arranged two meetings in a day; the first one is real and the 2^nd one is faked! I knew what the first meeting was all about but the 2^nd one really baffled me. She invited all the big shots for the faked meeting and made me wonder what it was all about. She said it is about the operation management facelift. Gosh!! Why am I invited???? At the same time Izwah, Chevron supervisor sent out an invitation to celebrate March Babies and Service Anniversary at the same meeting room and at the same time! I was not aware of that since I was busy with my works. In addition, it turned out to be a fake meeting. Damn it boss! Punyelah bersungguh2 akue datang masuk meeting siap bawak notes semua last2 kene tipu. I’ve being punk’d! Siap kene gelak lagik ngan semua org sebab bawak notes. Hahahahhahaha. Special thanks to Angela for making this real! I am going to miss u gurl….

Last weekend was great. For all the anticipation and gruesome moment, at last the moment that most of the Terendakian 94/98 waiting for came. Seriously it was a headache to organize such a big event eventhough the head counts are very much less this year. I admit, I almost fall flat on my back. I dunno why, inspite of the consensus to cancel the event but I stood my ground and went ahead with the plan. I just followed my instinct eventhough that time I was clueless on what need to be done. Anyway I just go with the flow. It was not easy to organize from start to end and this time it was much tougher than the previous one back in 2002. I’m damn exhausted and damn tired but it was my responsibility to make this happen for this special occasion, 10^th year anniversary. In future I don’t want to reflect back and regret why we did not do anything for our 10^th anniversary. Well the decision has been made and it paid off! I was drenched in sweat but I enjoyed! 2 days 1 night just went by so quickly. I couldn’t believe it was time to say goodbye. Let me share some beautiful memories during the events. To all my dear TDK94/98 friends, thank you so much for your participation and support. You guys make it real! I’m not a one-man show but I’m a team player. Special thanks to my team for devoting their time and the cooperation and commitment extended to make this event a success. From the start to end; Badrul, Wandu Azilah, Riza and especially Madhi and Alia. Without these peeps especially my wingmans Madhi and Alia, we would have failed miserably.     

Hope to see you guys again!

One of my friends, told me “Baik ko cancel jerk reunion nih kalu macam nih la response die. Buat sakit hati jerk. Ko rase berbaloi ke kalu penat2 hanye utk 30 orang. Jangan nanti ko makan hati sudah”. And now I’m proudly say “Yeap ia berbaloi”. Just believe in urself. You can make the difference.

2007 has passed and now a new chapter has begun. Time runs so fast and I couldn’t believe that I’m ageing L. Let’s recap what have happened and I have achieved for 2007. I managed to cut few kg and few inches but towards the end of year I gained a few kg due to irregularities of life. Sigh L. Yet my smoking habit has been going from bad to worse again! The workloads are really driving me crazy! Previously I was so comfortable adapting to my working environment but currently I need to adapt to ‘NEW’ working ambience which is really hard to follow. Working on leverage accounts is ok but if too many accounts coming in, it can cause haywire like what I’m experiencing now. Too many processes and procedures need to be obliged and too many tools to learn. Move on to the world of entertainment, I attended Good Charlotte’s, Ungu’s, Black Eyed Peas’ and Dewa 19’s. Different music, different genre but the same excitement. The best one so far last year was BEP J. MCR came but I’m unable to attend, really frustrating. Oh yeah not to forget, the stork has dropped 2 little cuties into the family Mohd. Nazhan bin Hazarul Shazly and Ahmad Muaz bin Hazarul Azhar . Yeah I know, boys again!

Unfortunately my 2008 didn’t start off really well. I had an accident on the 1^st day of 2008. I escaped with slightly bruised knee and concussion. My car was badly wrecked    . And now I’m ‘vehicle-less’, can someone send me to work and pick me later? My sister had a minor operation on Monday. Instead of removing her womb, the doctor had her fibroid removed. Alhamdulillah everything is fine but Kakak is weak and bedridden. Get well soon. We all love you!

What’s up for 2008? I need to do something which I should have done long time ago; prioritize my concerns and never take things personal. I’m not yet settle with my life. Too many things on my mind. I was disheartened and from time to time I feel breaking and shaking down. Back to square one I suppose. Right now my ass is growing bigger and my back keeps aching. Less movement and strained eyes . Gosh, what am I doing????? arrghhhhhhhh

To all my beloved ex-TDK98, watch out for the next best thing coming into this year, 10^th anniversary. Hope to see you guys there. Cheers peep!

Sungguh lame tak menatapi blog nih. Anak sedare akue yg no. 9, Nazhan ngan no. 10, Muaz pon dah besar. What happened in between the last post and now? Many things have happened and many things I’ve done. Life has been great so far eventhough there’s a few unsettled issues at work and personal. My back keeps aching and my night sleep will never be enough. Hectic daily life. Sigh. Merdeka Day has passed, Ramadhan has passed and now it’s time for celebration, Eid Fitr. Ramadhan this year has been a different approach for me. I missed doing something I usually did in the past years. Time ticks off so fast until I lost track of time. All this while I did not realize that something was missing until the end of Ramadhan. For the first time in my life, I felt lonely. I don’t know why even I myself couldn’t explain the emotion. Well, at least there’s something different with me, otherwise I’ll be like ‘dumb bell’ with no feeling towards life. Sometimes it’s easy (or not that easy) to forgive but hard to forget or vice versa. I pity my parent; they worked so hard with all the cooking and cleaning just to serve us the whole family. There’s nothing much I can do to help eventhough I started the holiday on Friday, a day before Raya. Everybody was here during the Eid Fitr even my 2 nephews from Malacca joined us for this year. Now my house is the new “kampong” for all of us to gather for any festivities. Small house, small family but big values, that’s all matter.Hmmm. Raya is all about eating, non-stop meal from morning till nite. Haih calory level pon increased tremendously. I feel soooo bloated like ikan buntal! I wanted to take leave until Friday but I only managed to beg until Wednesday. Alas what can I do, the workload was simply overwhelming. Hehehehhehe. Ape yg menariknye psl bulan Raya nih? Banyak open house sane sinih sampai jalan pon konpem trafficnye. Raya month has officially ended. Pejam celik pejam celik dah sebulan pon kite beraya L.

(workload harassment during raya!)

During the Raya month, Black Eyed Peas was in town! I managed to get an early bird ticket thanks to my sweet cute ballerina J. I went to their 1st concert back in 2004 or 2005 during their Elephunk tour. The 1st concert was great but this time it was damn excellent. The breeze in Genting was cold but once we enter the arena, it was a bit warm. Marvelous, stupendous and exuberant act. The vibrant was exhilarating, their performance were fantastic. Huih. Penat wei terkinja-kinja dlm tuh. ‘Datin’ dan ‘Odielicious’ pon dah cam org giler tapi Rajpal lak tegak jerk. They performed all the hits in their previous album. Mas Que Nada, Don’t Phunk With My Heart, Don’t Lie, My Hump and the list goes on and on. Fergie kicked-off her solo act with Big Girls Don’t Cry and sang all her latest “The Duthchess” except for Clumsy L while Will.i.am sang his ultimate song (his only solo act) I Got It from My Mama (I loike the vc, hihihihihi). Memang gerek habis lah dierang nih. Their showmanship and vocal were damn awesome. Thanks to Will.i.am, Fergie, Taboo and Apl.de.ap for their moment of silence tribute to late Genting’s founder. I don’t remember what time the show ended but I really enjoyed. Nora and Jean were happy cause they met their “borneo” friend and the best part was, they took a picture with Hans Isaac. What a bummer. Beyonce cancelled her tour to Malaysia due to many “restrictions” but instead skipped to Thailand. The next big show will be Federer, Sampras and Nadal for an exhibition tennis match which I’ve been told the tickets are sold out (http://www.ticketpro.com.my/akce/detail/28)! Sigh… Later in December My Chemical Romance will perform but I am unable to go due to ‘unforeseen circumstances’. Fucked! I’ll dig up my way to be there but the tickets are damn expensive (http://www.ticketpro.com.my/akce/detail/34). I’ll think about it.

Something bad happened @ work recently. I’m shocked and still trembling until today. I’m very unsettled. Later peeps!

You got me trippin, stumbling, flippin, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I’m fallin in love
You got me slippin, tumbling, sinking, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I’m fallin in love So in love with you

Yeah no. 10 dah kuar. As expected it’s a BOY. 10 budak lelaki, amatlah memeningkan kepala kami! I went to Abg Ash’s place on Saturday to see my new toddler. Muke sebijik mcm abg die Usamah. Nama dah ade cume tak confirm jerk lagik. Abg. Ash and Kak Mimi plan to name the little baby Ahmad Muaz . I’ll post the name once it’s confirmed. Later Abang came with no. 9, Nazhan. Beza giler 2 budak kecik nih walaupon beza cume 1 ½ bulan jerk. Nazhan spent the whole weekend at my place because Abang wanted to play golf and Kak Tina went for a massage. Mak bapak wat keje masing2, kiterang kat umah lak kene jaga baby. I spent my weekend at home looking after Nazhan. Seronok dan memenatkan . The last time I had more than one nephew was back 1999; Abdul Malek, Abdullah Azam and Mohd. Adam. And now they’re in standard 2. It’s halfway through 2007 and it has brought joy and happy moments for me. I’m looking forward for the future. I’m also waiting for a niece! Cheers people..

Arrghhhhh.. It’s 4 am and I’m late for work! Damn it.. Terlajak lagik.. haaaihhh………………

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I took leave last Friday and the whole Fonterra SRM team went for a team lunch (Malaysia time) at The Curve. Everybody was there except for Rajpal (bad sinus attack) and Sugan (dey macha OU tuh 5-10 minutes away from The Curve laa camne ko leh sesat). By coincidence it also was Afzal’s 33^rd birthday. Gopi threw a surprise for him, 10 shots of Flaming Lamborghini! This guy was totally drunk and he even spoke Tagalog with the barristers. We party from afternoon till late night, Milkyway style! I was totally exhausted and found it difficult to drive back home, jeez. Obviously I did not have enough rest during the weekend, maybe due to my adjusted sleeping pattern. My brother came on Saturday with the little toddler, Mohd. Nazhan bin Hazarul Shazly. Geramnye tgk baby nih, tembam jerk! But most of the time Nazhan slept at my place.   The moment he woke up, my brother wanted to go back L. Later that evening I went to Wandu’s and Azilah’s place. It was supposed to start at 4 but when I reached there around 5, only Madhi and Min were around. I thought I gonna be the last person to arrive. Nice get-together event. Later most of us including the girls went for a karaoke session. 3 hours of non-stop singing, hahahahahahaha. The last time we headed for karaoke was back in February if I’m not mistaken and this is the first time with the girls. Excellent! Baru leh berduet, hehehehehehe. On Sunday I went for lunch with my ‘long-lost friends’. It was nice to patch up again what we left over the past. Cool stuffs! Haih, I only managed to sleep around 3-4 hours during the weekend and as a result, I PANCIT at work. Really damn damn tired and couldn’t handle it. Eventhough it was tiring, but I really had GREAT times.

After all this excitement and fun laden adventure, I received a message and an email from ‘friends’ of mine, anonymous. The content was really disturbing and threw me off-balanced for a while. What is the purpose of the message? Why must everything pop-up now and not before? I’m sick and tired of this game. This is my life we’re talking about. I hardly sleep at night thinking of this shit, I don’t really like it. It really affects my daily chores. I’m neither a businessman nor a politician, why this so-called ‘friends’ sent “surat layang”? I’m just an average Joe. Why is it so difficult for you to identify yourself if you really wanna help? I’m not sure whether the intention is good or bad but I took it the positive way. But doing this is not a clever move, you’re tormenting my life. Things have changed for the past few months and to revert back to the past it’s not an easy task. Nothing is impossible. But if you try to play pranks with me, I’ll HUNT you down like a duck! Don’t you ever think by doing this you can break my fortitude. I’m a herculean! And I know you are reading my blog. If you do, please come clean and identify yourself. We can sort everything once and for all. I’m not a mean or a harsh person. I have a few ‘friends’ in mind but I won’t disclose it for the time being. You found me by emailing to my personal email that I don’t really use nowadays and bear in mind, I’ll find you too! For now I’m putting aside this shit and concentrate on my life.

Today I’m happy because I have the chance to play with my little Nazhan. My brother and his wife went out to watch Transformer L. Akue jugak kene jaga anak engkau, hihihihi but I don’t mind, he’s my flesh and blood. Cheers.

I love school holidays. All my nephews will be in town just like Hari Raya. It’s been a while since I met my nephews especially my dear beloved sister. The greatest news that occurred during the school holiday was we were bestowed with a new family member. My sister-in-law, Kak Tina gave birth to a baby boy. And now the tally has gone to 9, all BOYS! The baby (doesn’t have a name until today, we called him Mohamad) was born on 28^th May around Zuhur. We went to Shah Alam at around 6pm and Abg. Ash and his family were already there. The room seems to be like a nursery with all my nephews shouting and running like mad. I saw Kak Tina lying on the bed with happy face, first child la katekan. I myself wasn’t at my best, had a flu and a running nose but happy to see my brother sitting next to his wife and looking after her. Next July (Insyaallah) the 10^th boy will join the family. Kak Mimi is expecting sometime in July. Hmmm 10 boys? Giler rame anak sedare akue nih. Semua laki lak tuh. Pening pening! Biler la niece akue nak muncul nih, I wonder. On the 30^th May was my nephew’s birthday, Azam. Mama and daddy fetched him and Huzaifah from Malacca to join the others. Huish, chaos gile rumah ngan little rascals! The next day was my beloved momma’s birthday, I kissed her. Kakak treated us to a lunch. Later in the evening me and the little rascals went for Shrek the Third, birthday treat for Azam. This is my first time taking out all my nephews TOGETHER! Jeez it wasn’t easy. Kejap yang ini nak itu, yang itu nak ini, tak senang btol aa nak tengok movie. Lepas tuh lari sana lari sini, arghhhh. Lucky Asghar was there to assist me. We had a really great and splendid holiday. But now the school holiday is over and everybody has gone. What’s left is me and my parent. Back as usual, empty and lonely. I really want to see the little baby. The last time I don’t have the chance to cuddle him. Hhmmm when can I see my baby Mohamad?

May has passed and it brings some memorable memories. From the beginning till towards the end it was filled with sweet memories; families’ birthdays, some close friends’ birthdays some few other events J. I will always cherish the month of May. Its half way through 2007 and so far life has been great! Life in the fast lane is never easy. Its either you keep up with the pace or you will be left behind. Thank God I’m still intact to my driver seat. Life is full of changes and the unexpected, a challenge for a better tomorrow. Later peeps!

How do you feel today? Me? I’m feeling good, thank God. It’s been a wonderful and exciting week for me. As I drove on the busy traffic in KL, I can’t stop grinning and shouting like mad. Eventhough I was exhausted and hungry, my nerve system has blocked these feeling and couldn’t transcends my euphoria. Lately I’ve been dueling with mixed emotion, a bad mood swing. Well now I’m very much happy. When the last time I had this feeling? I guess its far far back in life which akue malas nak amik tau. Orait peeps, hadapi hari-hari anda dengan senyuman because the rest is still unwritten.

The king has returned to the throne.

Man Utd is the champion of England once again. This is their 9th titles in 15 years. The last time they won the title was back in the 2002/2003 season. Man Utd secured all 3 points at Manchester derby and clinched the title after Chelsea could manage only a draw a day after. It’s been a wonderful season for them and the team, a combination of young and experienced players proved teamwork is all it takes to be a champion. After a disappointing Champions League campaign, beaten by Milan at San Siro, their dream of claiming a Treble has all been in vain. Now their only hope is to go for the Double, FA Cup in 2 weeks time against the battered Chelsea, out of Europe and 2nd to Man Utd. Next season will witness the return of Man Utd’s old boys, Roy Keane of Sunderland and Steve Bruce of Birmingham City to the top flight to fight for survival alongside Mark Hughes’s Blackburn Rovers. I anticipate a fair challenge between them and of course I’ll be watching The Reunion game.

Last week I watched the city rival match between Man City and Man Utd with my newly-wed buddy, Wandu in Wangsa Maju. This time we went to a different place, Abedeen Café. I’ve read in my school’s alumni mailing list and found out about the café. It’s partly owned by my super seniors and apparently they were in the same batch as my brother, SPM Class ‘91. So I suggested we should try out this new place (actually it’s been there for years but under different management, bearing the same name) after all, we’ve been heading to the same mamak for years! The café is nice and cozy; suitable for family outing and middle-aged person who loves peace and quiet surrounding. The ambience is chilling and the interior is simple but relaxing. As we watched the game and AF5, my other senior Johoe came and joined us. Apparently he knew about the café from the same source as mine, what a coincidence. Later few of Johoe’s friends joined us Hatim, Apunk, Tareq and Along. At first it was an awkward situation since we never hangout together but later everything went on fine. We talked all night about everything from jobs to our alumni’s chapter. It was great! During our school days there’s a gap between the juniors and seniors and all those bullshit protocols but now it different, we managed to bridge the gap with all due respect. Awesome! Later the owners came and we chit-chat everything about the past, about our beloved school. We shared the common thing. Our bond of friendship is strong until today.

I came across to read one of my friend’s blog. One of the entries attracted my attention. The person spent 2 unhappy and gruesome years at MRSM Terendak (from what I’ve read, sorry if I misinterpreted the impression). I gulped for a moment. I couldn’t imagine how the person felt, I thought everybody had a great time during high school. I guess I was wrong L. It’s true throughout our studies, there’s a huge gap between the girls and the boys but who cares? During those days we don’t care, as long as we can mingle amongst ourselves then its ok. Obviously everybody has its own clique, but it’s your call to place yourself in which stack you belong to. The past is something memorable to reflect at present. I wish I could turn back the time to mend everything but I won’t. It was a mistake I don’t want to remedy. I’ve been through a jagged edge during my school days but I will not let it transcends the good thing. I’m so sorry to read the person’s experience. We were not mature enough back then to make everybody happy. For me it’s been a pleasure to know each and everyone including juniors and seniors during those days. The seniority aura has been broken but the espirit de corps remains impeccable! The present days are far more different from the past. Nowadays we have bridge the gaps J!

This post is not to counter what the person has written. It’s just an expression and opinion of mine. I respected the person‘s view. To all my juniors and seniors do try Abedeen Café if you are in Wangsa Maju. It’s located in the same row as ‘NZ lama’ at the far end, a little bit on the outskirt. Asyik2 lepak mamak sekali-sekala tuko aa selera. Check out this site for location. Have a nice day peeps!